So much has happened in one year and we are so blessed.
November 30, 2011:
So that faint test that I thought I had a few days ago was NOT so faint this morning (after waiting a few days). I don't even know what to do or say. Jeremiah is out of town and I just sat in my bathroom balling this morning all alone! I don't want to tell him over the phone and I'm having 8 small group girls come over for a sleepover tonight!! So many emotions! I called my best friend in the whole world this morning before my classes began and just cried with her! I am excited to get together a fun way to tell Jeremiah but all I want to do when he calls is burst out with the news!!!
God is so faithful and good! I am in such awe of this gift he is growing inside of me!!!!
I cannot wait to tell our family and friends (in a few weeks) and cannot wait to meet this baby come August.
God,
You are so amazing. I sit in awe of the miracle of life and that you have blessed me with this gift. I don't know what the next 9 months will hold but I do know that I ask you to speak life into this baby. I ask you to remove the millions of fears that are inside of me and just let me enjoy this time. Lord, keep my relationship with you strong. This baby is not mine but yours and I want to be the best mom I can be and that means that I have to foremost make my relationship with you the strongest. Give Jeremiah encouragement and wisdom to be a great dad. Helps our parents to know how to best support us and our friends how to best encourage us. Help me as I tell my friends who are struggling to start their family and help me to be sensitive to those situations during these next 9 months. Lord most of all give me a joy that is outstanding for you. Help me to show your light at school as this might be my last year here. You are the most amazing thing in my life Lord and I want to keep you in my thoughts everyday all day!
in Christ's name, Amen
Baby
YOU ARE IN THERE!! I can't feel you but I can feel something stirring inside of me. I pray that in 9 months I can meet you. I pray that you are healthy and perfect. I pray that as you grow up you will know the love that God has for you and how blessed I am to be your mommy. I love you with all of me!
Love,
Mommy
December 2nd, 2011
I was SO excited to tell Jeremiah about our news! Lauren was the only one who knew because I just simply had to tell someone who could scream and cry with me and keep me calm for 2 DAYS until Jeremiah got home.
I had 8 girls over for a sleepover which meant little sleep but it was perfect because it gave me time to think of a cute way to reveal the news to him!
So he came home shortly after the last girl left I took a mini stocking and placed it between our 2 big stockings. Inside that mini stocking I put the 2 positive pregnancy tests. I also had a song queued up that was a song we joked about playing when we became pregnant. It is Glee's "you're having my baby". So he came home and was exhausted from his work trip that caused him not to sleep for almost 30 hours... I told him to sit on the couch and I would bring him a drink (the stocking is right across from the couch)... so he sat down and... nothing... haha. He walked by the stocking to get out of his regular clothes and put on comfy clothes and... nothing... So behind our stocking is our lit up shelf of our Christmas village houses so I asked if he would turn off the Christmas house lights on the shelf (where he almost had to hit his head on the mini stocking and.... nothing! I'm not wanting to make this abrupt but I couldn't hold it in any longer. So I told him that one of the girls in my small group bought us a present and it was in the mini stocking hanging from the shelf. He said "awesome." and continued to relax on the couch.. (I almost flipped! haha) then all of a sudden he stood up and looked at me and walked closer to the stocking and said "NO WAY...???!! Are you serious!?! Omg I'm so excited!" So we hugged and cried and screamed for a few minutes and then I said "ok I have 1 more thing" and I went to turn on the song and I realized that when I told him to turn off the light switch that he turned off the power strip that my computer was plugged into and it shut down my computer! haha. It was the perfect disaster of a reveal but it was just so amazing.
It is still VERY unbelievable to us and I can feel changes but Jeremiah can't and I know that will be hard for him but he is So excited for us! No hesitations and pure excitement and what an amazing position to be in! We will be telling our family on Saturday and we are so excited!!
We bought ornaments that say "Grandma, Grandmpa, aunt, uncle" for each of our immediate family members with "Love, Baby Hann" on the ornament. We have scheduled times with all of them and we already had plans that would make this not look suspicious... I can't even wait!! It's concert week for me which is high stress so I need to relax this week and then when I can finally share the news with someone I will be able to calm a bit :)
I am constantly in thought about everything and have to give up control. I hope this is what God works through me these next several months. I can do my part by keeping myself healthy and stress less but ultimately God will keep my baby safe and healthy or prepare me for what he has different.
Some pics from our first realization of our baby :)
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